i have some principles and they shouldn’t be broke easily.

but if one tells me that i shouldn’t be like this or that. i break my rules.

i found out that i am quite easy to change my original ideas or plans for people.

but then sometimes if i ask someone to do me a favor for changing sth for me.

i will get nothing.

from now on, i will just try to say NO out loud if it’s against my rules.

想說的話很多，但是坐在電腦機前，卻不知從何說起。

回台北兩年了，每天一成不變的生活，讓人快失去原有的理想。

扣除上班及睡覺時間和一些拉哩拉扎的事，

每一天，真正屬於自己的時間只剩不到三小時。

至少對於那些已有家庭的人來說，我是個自由人。

沒有家庭的牽絆，孤家寡人的，更可以放手去過想要過的生活。

算了算口袋的錢，如果去歐美過著簡單的生活，一年半載沒收入，應該不成問題。去東南亞流浪，應該可以活的更久。

有過獨自漫步異國的經驗，景色是那麼的完好，街上熙熙攘攘好不熱鬧。

心情該是愉悅的，但當你發現有趣的事，卻無法與你身邊的隱形人分享時，

那真不是滋味。

曾經有人說，來歐洲吧! 但自以為的謝絕了。我想一個人也可以很快樂的，不是嗎？但事實證明，人是需要有 partners 的。不然景色再美，奶茶再怎樣好喝，也只有自己知道，可不是嗎？

不知道何時，可以有勇氣，再說一次 so long, everyone!

不知幾時，才可以像朋友一樣，訂一張 one way ticket, no return.

I am waiting for the chance and I know I will get it!  

my dear brother is going to get marry soon this year.

i’m so very happy for him

do we really have a chance? of course, we do. but we always miss it.

we have a chance to move out from home when we were 15. but we chose to stay.

we have a chance to say yes, i will. but we avoided it.

we have a chance to choose a good chance. but we just did it wrong.

how many chances we have? well, we always have a chance to choose what is “right” for us before we decide it. there is no right or wrong. how could we know if it’s right or not? u think it’s right to do but then your parents or even friends disagree with you. i just think no matter what we choose, we won’t have a best solution.

when chances fly away, it won’t come back as time flys. so think it more and more, if u need to make a decision.

 what is the longest relationship we have in the world? and it won’t ever change. to me, it’s kinship. the love between parents and children. the love between brothers and sisters. but don’t get it wrong. i’m not saying we ONLY have this in the world.

i had my lovers. i think we loved each other then. but did we? a strong love won’t collapse like bricks. a strong relationship will always stand there as lighthouses. no matter what happens, it’ll always be there and guide you. but i guess sometimes we are just no luck. the one, who you think you love, betray you. he also loves the other one. please don’t buy it, if some say i love you forever. nothing is forever. and also don’t buy the other sentence, i like you. sometimes, it means i want to have a sex with you. to me, love just can be changed between a couple.

how about friendship? well, i would say it’s better than the relation above. it’s easy hanging out with friends. you’ll worry less than you worry with your lovers. but can friends always be our friends? no, they can’t. they would be your enemy whenever they think “it’s the time.”

i don’t think i am a perfect good person but i’m not bad either. but sometimes, i just can have some “nice shooty things” happened on me. am i lucky or…

anyways, i appreciate that i have a wonderful family who always supports me. and also, i appreciate that i still have good friends who join parts of my life.

  第五天了

我不知道還要持續多少個五天….

i went to national theater concert hall for la fin des terres ( till the end of the world) by compagnie philippe genty this afternoon. my boss said it’s about pantomime. but i think it’s more about visual fancy play with magic and dancing. it’s not only modern but classic. there are 5 to 6 main actors including three actresses in the show. it turns out a good show doesn’t need a huge amount of players, does it?

you can feel each performer presenting their whole energy for audiences.

i noticed that our audiences are too serious about the show. i meant sometimes we should laugh at the show when it’s funny or weep when we are moved by the show. to watch a show especially players are foreigners, they may wish audiences have some reation. if you act like cold stones, maybe they…

a group of enthusiastic audiences is the best encouragement for performans. :) i only heard kids laughing though but they also asked their parents questions : ( and that kills me :p

it’s the show i may not totally understand but i’d show up my emotions when i watched it. to be honest, i don’t understand some parts of it but i do enjoy the atmosphere it gives me.

after then, my friend drove me to a flower market to join my parents. my friend has no interest at all so he left after we were arrived. my parents and i adore flowers. we only spent one hour or so and we went home with a full trunk. :p  i would show you more pictures when they blossom.

i couldn’t believe my dear watch was broken.

back to the time when i flew to japan last week, the cover of the watch was gone!!

i didn’t even notice that when i was in the departure lounge.

my eyes were wide opened when i saw the glass cover was gone!!!

i really wanted to cry then. and i started to serch it on the airplane, like a crazy person!

but never ever could find it…

geez, i love that watch so very much.

it’s not an expensive one though. i bought it last year when i was in france.

it means something to me.

right now the minute hand is broken too!!!

i will send it to “a watch hospital” tomorrow before i go to pantomime for 100% sure!

god bless my dear watch, pleaseeeee…..